A Jung illustration I stumbled on without knowing it was signaling the beginning

Returning home : Kundalini dreams, is an embroidery/photography/words work-in-progress.

A recount of a seven year journey through the alchemical processes of healing : through the darkness toward the light, and back again, to life.

Ie, a spiritual awakening.

Kundalini is the sanskrit term for a concentrated field of vital primal energy traditionally known to be located at the base of the spine. It could be refered to as supra-consciousness within consciousness, the nature force-energy responsible for our psycho-physiological metamorphosis to which we shall surrender.

To evolve is to return.

« Cranial plates migration »

« Spinal sweep »

The title Returning Home originally came to me when I literally returned home to be a full-time caregiver at an earlier time in life. Years down the line, I realized those two words ringing in my ears were actually meant to signify something as grand as returning to the origin, to Source, to oneness.

As it turned out, this odd situation happened only to be the metaphysical background of a much greater evolutionary cycle : a journey of spiritual purification, wandering and discovery triggered by a soul connection, which eventually led me to kundalini: the healing Nature force behind our on-going psycho-physiological metamorphosis. As it awakens, its mysterious mechanisms are seen and felt on a conscious and biological circuit. The fierceness and designed orchestration of the process is almighty. It reconnects us with a sense of the divine. It makes the spiritually closed to finally walk their true path, and as it puts us back to balance, it opens us up to greater consciousness.

This is a radical shattering of our world, a shift from the material linear thinking to the spiraling world of energy that will guide us much further than who we thought we were.. Many of us question and resist for a long time before we surrender to these forces. And we won’t have much freewill as the path is merciless. Cycles will repeat with increasing pain only for the outcome to be delayed. 

The excruciating pain, the emotional roller-coaster ride, the destruction of all things, the energetic and physical symptoms, the psychic rewiring, the denial, the craziness and sickness, the wonderment, the karmic lessons, the miracles… and finally a new level of peace and transcendence are all part of this inevitable transformation arising from a sudden wake up call at some point in our lives.  A call for love and awareness, at a much deeper level.

Although we definitely need a framework to navigate this bewildering transition, what I’m envisioning here is another kind of testimonial, as a way to attest of this phenomenon with more contemplation and less analysis. Or maybe some. But how could we meaningfully tackle this really vast territory which is still out of our grasp. We fall in all the interpretations and traps. Could we ever bring justice to such profound experiences, or shall we stay silent.. Throughout the years I’ve kept record of this process with images and some writing. They are yet scattered from being born inside the loop, but I will let it grow from there.

Nowadays our consciousness is being challenged on many levels for us to anchor new ways of relating. But it is an ongoing unveiling which starts within. And from inheriting suffering, we can turn it around and return to a place of ever deeper emotional honesty, courage and authenticity, and reflect on how we function as multidimensional e-motional living beings. We are being pushed in this direction, and the transmutation of our millennial pain implies many souls to set themselves free through and by this mysterious love force, or any transformational path brought upon us.













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