Returning Home: Kundalini dreams and rebirth is an embroidery based work-in-progress, a recount of a 7 years journey through the alchemical processes caused upon connecting with another soul : through the darkness toward the light, and back again, to life.

Kundalini is the sanskrit term for a concentrated field of vital primal energy traditionally considered to be located at the base of the spine. It could be refered to as supra-consciousness within consciousness, the nature force-energy responsible for our psycho-physiological metamorphosis and which we shall surrender to.

To evolve is to return.


« Spinal sweep »

The title Returning Home originally came to me when I literally returned home to be a full-time caregiver at an earlier time in life. Years down the line, I realized those two words ringing in my ears were actually meant to signify something as grand as returning to the origin, to Source, to oneness.

As it turned out, this odd situation happened only to be the metaphysical background of a much greater evolutionary cycle, a journey of soul’s purification, wandering and discovery, which eventually lead to what I will call Kundalini experiences : this Nature force behind our on-going psycho-physiological metamorphosis, which mechanisms can then be seen on a conscious and biological circuit. The fierceness and designed orchestration of the path resembles a mythical initiation through the unfolding of universal symbology and the archetypal. A sense of the divine. And it brings indeed a true metanoia.

This is a radical shattering of our world, a shift from the material linear thinking to the spiraling world of energy that will guide us much further than who we thought we were.. Many of us question and resist for a long time before we surrender to these forces. And we won’t have much freewill as the path is merciless. Cycles will repeat with increasing pain only for the outcome to be delayed. 

The excruciating pain, the emotional roller-coaster ride, the destruction of all things, the energetic and physical symptoms, the psychic rewiring, the denial, the craziness and sickness, an awakening of some kind, the wonderment, the karmic lessons, the miracles… and finally a new level of peace and transcendence are all part of this inevitable transformation arising from meeting or knowing someone we are energetically and profoundly connected to – beyond time and space, ie a deep soul connection(s).  

Although we definitely need a framework to navigate this bewildering transition, what I’m envisioning here is another kind of testimonial, as a way to attest of this phenomenon with more contemplation and less analysis. Or maybe some. But how could we meaningfully tackle this really vast territory which is still out of our grasp. We fall in all the interpretations and traps. Could we ever bring justice to such profound experiences, or shall we stay silent.. Throughout the years I’ve kept record of this process with images and some writing. They are yet scattered from being born inside the loop, but I will let it grow from there.

Nowadays our consciousness is being challenged on many levels for us to anchor new ways of relating. But it is an ongoing unveiling which starts within. And from inheriting suffering, we can turn it around and return to a place of ever deeper emotional honesty, courage and authenticity, and reflect on how we function as multidimensional e-motional living beings. We are being pushed in this direction, and the transmutation of our millennial pain implies many souls to set themselves free through and by this mysterious love force, or any transformational path brought upon us.

Oct’ 2016, Paris





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