A Jung illustration I stumbled on without knowing it was signaling the beginning

It rises here :  the green ray, is an embroidery/photography/words work-in-progress.
A recount of a seven year journey through the alchemical processes of healing : through the darkness toward the light, and back again, to life.

Kundalini is the sanskrit term for a concentrated field of vital primal energy traditionally known to be located at the base of the spine. It could be refered to as supra-consciousness within consciousness, the nature force-energy responsible for our psycho-physiological metamorphosis and to which we shall surrender. Evolution is a return.

« Cranial plates migration »


A title Returning Home originally came to me when I literally returned home to be a full-time caregiver at an earlier time in life. Years down the line, I realized those two words ringing in my ears actually meant something like returning to the origin, to Source, to oneness.

As it turned out, this challenging enough situation was only the background for a wild journey of spiritual purification, wandering and discovery triggered by a very strong soul connection, which ignited Kundalini: the serpent fire, or the healing Nature force behind our on-going psycho-physiological metamorphosis. As it awakens and uncoils through the spine, its Mysterious mechanisms are seen and felt on a conscious circuit. It is experienced as an independent supra-intelligence within. Kundalini is almighty and seems to be all-knowing : the fierceness and divine orchestration of the process pushes the spiritually closed to finally walk their true path, and as it puts us back to balance, it heals our energies and bodies. 

This is a radical shattering of our world, a shift from the material linear thinking to the spiraling world of energy that will guide us much further than who we thought we were.. Many of us question and resist for a long time before we surrender to these forces. But cycles will repeat with increasing pain only for the outcome to be delayed. We won’t have much freewill as the path is merciless.

Sacrum departure I

The excruciating pain, the emotional roller-coaster ride, the destruction of all things, the energetic and physical symptoms, the psychic rewiring, the denial, the craziness and sickness, the wonderment, the karmic lessons, the miracles… and finally a new level of peace and transcendence are all part of this inevitable transformation arising from a sudden wake up call at some point in our lives.  A call for a heart expansion.

Although we definitely need a framework to navigate this bewildering transition, what I’m envisioning here is another kind of testimonial,  to attest of this phenomenon with more contemplation and less analysis. Or maybe some. But how could we meaningfully tackle this. Could we ever bring justice to such profound experiences, or even share them. Or shall we stay silent.. Throughout the years I’ve kept record of this process with images and some writing. They are yet scattered from being born inside the loop, but I will let it grow from there.

Nowadays we are being challenged on many levels to anchor new ways of relating. But it is an ongoing unveiling which starts within. And from inheriting suffering, we can turn it around and return to a place of ever deeper emotional honesty, and reflect on how we function as multidimensional e-motional beings. We are being pushed in this direction, and the transmutation of our millennial pain implies many of us to set ourselves free through and by this mysterious love force, or any transformational path brought upon us.


©2018-Shoko Tsuji